eat more save more :D

When i asked myself now , did I truly end up well? I would surely answer myself with a BOLD YEEEEEEEEEEES. 

When I entered the multi dimensional walls of Xavier, my first choice was to delve into the field of dev com in which i know i was more capable of doing more than anything (modesty aside, of course). 

However, my father is a nurse and so is my mom. It would be a no-brainer why I ended up in nursing. But, SERIOUSLY? I dont want to be a nurse , much more to stay in the hospital (these are basically the reasons why I kind of dreaded the thought of being a pro nurse – however, being a doctor ain’t a bad idea though. hahahahahahaha) So, noncompliance will surely restrain me safely tucked at home (no need for doctor’s order. haha) 

tapos, i said to myself “kung wala poy culinary sa XAVIER? ngano mag NURSING man ko?” then i tried to asked my mom nga “MA, mag CULINARY or mag DEV COM ra ko ma. gusto jud kaau ko ma chef or ma reporter”

mom: “mamaligya sa ta ug balay nak”

True. True. Being the practical parents that they are, they wouldn’t spend a copious amount of money to a future as dim-lit as the infamous alkitran (haha) so they PUSHED me to take up nursing instead. ako? NO CHOICE. pero cge NALANG!!!

Way back, I didn’t had the slightest inkling of what mess I’m getting my poor self into. Yes, it is a given nga when u take up nursing you’ve got to carry your own ass just to survive beyond XY or BOYLE’S LAW. But the thing is, I’m not the type of person who trusts his own answer when taking an examination. (IKA DUWA MAN GANI KO NAG TAKE SA XAVIER NGA ENTRANCE EXAMINATION — atleast naka 92 nako sa 2nd nga take kaysa sa 59. hahaha), i dont even trust myself when it comes to assignments, seatworks and return demonstration (NAG RD NGA WALAY GAMIT KAY KAMPANTI NGA DLI UNA MATAWAG?) oh men! i ‘d rather face cameras, radios, onions, frying pan, foooooood, headphones and etc than these kind of stuffs.

When I survived the first grueling year, I was just like — WOW! im done with my Anatomy and Physiology ( the subject where even the kasulok-sulokan of the body needs to be memorized) phew. GOD knows, I never expected to survive the DELTO-WED, STERNOCLEIDOMASTO-WED. then i started to think beh? kung ako ning bagsakon unsa nalang kaha ang iingon sa tao nako? FAILURE? BELIEVE YOU ME, dli jud ko ganahan ignan ug TALONAN! i would prefer to take a blow than to be called a good for nothing quitter. Second? dli man mi ingana ka kwartahan. Dawbeh? KALASAN ra nako ang kwarta sa akong ginikanan? 

So, i began to make my own camp fire. I started to think of the things that would inspire me to carry on the battle. First? wow! Ganahan kau ko maka CHN UNIFORM. huh! When you’re still on your first year in nursing, you would really want to have a chn uniform because of the nurse’s feel of the whole look and etc. WOAH! Then i Got one. Honestly, i started to love Nursing.

CAPPING LANG LORD!!! checked!

PSYCHIA LANG LORD!! Checked.

BASTA! MA FOURTH YEAR LANG. Checked

GRADUATE LANG LORD!! checked!

March 14 2011 — the date ill never forget for the rest of my life. My vision on what will be happening on march 26 2011 was as clear as running waters. yama! ka graduate jud mi ani bah. Then when I got my semi final exam? BLURRED IMAGINARY VISION occurred! i would leave a clue “NO.5”. this “NO.5” gave me palpitations every night and anxiety attacks with the mere sight of calculators and red ballpens. I asked a lot of people on what ought to be done if u have this NO.5. I even got to the point of begging God to take good care of me (most specially, my grades). Ug muingon ko: kung mag tarong ko ani sa finals, kaya man nih bah! So i began to study all by myself whenever i have free time, join study sessions in my barkada’s crib and of course, offering everything to GOD, including this tragedy (haha). 

THEN THE AWAITED DAY CAME. When i woke up at 6:30am on march 14, 2011 – it was pouring, as if symbolizing the tears we might be shedding when the result will be released (MATUD PANG KYLE ROD). I got palpitations again. I kept on praying and asking for GOD’s guidance and strength to hold on and believe that I can nail it. The updates in the internet were fluctuating (from 20 to 39) and so is my heart beat. C’mon, this waiting game is really killing me. When My ate (congrats te) and I went to the faculty room, she grasped my hand and i tried to be as calm as possible.

I said to myself: “mag pasizing nalang sa ko para inspiration” but my ate encouraged me to get the grades first before goin out for the toga preparations. Following her advice, i went in the faculty room, and dang, what I saw literally tore my emotions apart. One student was crying, and one was grinning. YAMA, aha man kaha akong kapareha’g expression anih pag gawas? WALA NAJUD KO KASABOT SA AKONG FEELING. 

I seated infront of my Father CI. SIR ROQUE. blah. blah. blah. blah. (salamat sir)

Highlight: MAAM V.

KRAM: Ma’am ginhawa sa ta maam beh? kulbaan najud kau ko maam.

Maam V: Sir roque? Naa tay extra nga chair kang Mr.Casino kay murag dli na makaya.

Gamay sad kaayo ang chair sa faculty ui.

SIR R (NAGKATAWAHA UG AYO!)

BLAH! BLAH! BLAH! (taas kau ni nga storya!! pero pasalamt ko kang MAAM V. grabeh. nakahilak ko sa iyang atubangan tungod ani :)))) lamat maam V. :D

RESULT: 1.65. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAAHHA :D

I made this note because I’m just so proud that after all the nervous break down syndrome I went through, I was able to make it through! It’s not about, ‘ohh! i really did great on my college life’ nor about ‘ill be graduating this march’. I couldn’t care less about this honor student thingies. After all, I’m just this lowly student, trying to make both ends meet in this bizarre student life. I’m just Supercaliflagilistikespialidoiciously (wrong spelling. ambot unsay sakto) happy. Period. 

My ate, keith and I decided to go to the church and there everything sank in and I said to my sister, “hala te, pasar najud ta te” hantod sa WALA NA DAYON KO KASABOT SA HOMILY. Haha.

NOW? IM HAPPY but slightly sad :(( some of my friends and my BESTFRIENDS werent able to make it. I prayed for the success of everyone but it’s just so sad nga some of my friends kay wala! basta.

I’m almost done. I’ll be marching this march. HAPPY MAN KO! But the sadness will always be there. kay dibah, mas MA HAPPY UNTA KO nga DUNGAN MING TANAN. ana bah! HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHA :D pero happy man ko! alangan naman.

But you know what guys? Dili man jud ko brayt pero kabalo ko nga MAKAYA ni nato tanan bei. Sa mga nakapasar? Congrats natoo!! We did a great job.

To those who didnt make it? YOU DID A GREAT JOB TOOOOOO!!!! TABANG. Di lalim maka tung-tung ug nursing up to 4th year.

Wala naman koi lain masulti kay gikapoy napud ko ug type.

CONGRATULATIONS BATCH 2011-2012. :D

MAHAL NA MAHAL KO KAYO.

PS: Knock.knock?

who’s there?

DINA.

Dina who?

DINA NAKO MUSKWELA UG NURSING!! BAHALA KA DRAH!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA. *BOW

im with my dad. and i love him so muuuccch :D

im always full when im with him.

not to mention the history of my name. ah.uh?

shhhhhh.. i love him :D

foood is all i want now :d hey foood? SHOOOOWWW UP!!!!!

WOAAAAAAAAAAAH.. its already 12:01am and yeah, few hours from now? ill surely jump off my ass to somewhere in which i really missed — the most :p Looking back, this place maybe well known to its natural resources and etc. When i did had a vacation here, I once told myself “I SHALL COME BACK” clap.clap to mr.Douglas.. and yeah? the promise in which i thought something just came out of nowhere? later? it will be a reality? hope soo — hahahahaha.

not to mention the weather of blah blah blah. Still, the idea of happiness and once in a life time experience prevail. Ohhhh. not to mention again, the different places I’ve never went through. but still looking forward to visit the place i’d love to go —- tomorrow. Maybe someday, I can be the tourist guide of this place. A relaxing SOMEWHERE where u can hang out with your friends, where you can have a mini boracay, a good sunset, nice themes for photo shoots, a small town like vigan and a Hotel that would exactly compare the highest buildings of makati.. shut up kram.. u cant even find a MOA der or even an EK. seriously? it’s a place where u can find inner peace and love :d

Goodnight everyone. :)))

 The way I walk, is like the hands on a clock
Ever moving forward, ever beating with talk 

Never one to stop and cry to the past
For time waits for no one, it just goes by too fast

Yet, I feel the pull of days long ago
Of love yet undivided, sullied not broke

I learn of this at a quarter past three
With her arms around another thee

I suffered there with tears as the gods cried with me
I stood with resilience as that of a tree

T’was the day I learnt that the heart is a toy
To be forgotten or lost or utterly destroyed

Yet I love the rain still, as the gods only know 
Not for sadness or loss but of joy yet to be sown 

You see it’s not for sorrow and grief that the skies openly weep
They cry for growth and renewal after winter’s deep sleep

It’s a new beginning, a time to go ahead
Those learning moments that define what’s a man

It’s not hard to find truth it just has to be had
Not wishful thinking or spite out of hand

Teach not what most dislike’s; show what is what’s delight 
For rain’s will come and wash away those pains of nightly fright

I’ve learnt since first loves despair 
That time is a river which always flows fair

It’s not what has happened, but what knowing is true
To learn from it always, to know it is you :))

It is always normal for a student to feel this way, especially when the grades are yet to be released. that aint easy, you know. You even walked on the blazing fire of struggles in nursing, Limited sleeps and dreams during duties and even cutting off classes just to compensate for the hours and hours of sleep deprivation. and now? this is the moment. 
                                                
hope to see myself and my friends walking in the isle of success. 1st sem is over. way over. and 2nd sem is just the new beginning but history will start all over again. 

I LOVE GOD but I DONT LOVE RS. 

-clint yeban

hahahahahahahahaahaha :)) yeeaaaahhh righttt. i like the idea of knowing more about him but not, ofcourse, with a written exam afterwards. hahahaha :)